Wednesday, 12 December 2012

On the Wagon... Off the Wagon... On the Wagon... and You Guessed it... OFF THE WAGON!

Seems like it's confession time again. Its so embarrassing to come clean with you that once again I am off the clean, healthy, fruit and veggie, hay filled wagon and instead have clamored on to a wagon containing processed easy food and anything else that makes me want to sleep. Why oh why did I promise to be honest when I started this blog. Well the good news is that I haven't gained any weight back, the bad news is that it`s coming. I know that I cant keep eating things that are not fit for human consumption and expect to maintain weight loss. I haven't noticed a difference in the scales but i certainly have noticed a difference in my over all wellness and energy level. I am just so tired all the time, and add night shifts to that and you come up with a sleepy, sleepy lady. So what makes me do it? Throw my logic out the window and say bring on the regular Pepsi!! I wonder sometimes if there is something wrong with my brain... if the part of my brain that reasons healthy choices is ill and has been replaced by a sugar craving sicko. The sad thing is that I have so much head knowledge about healthy eating and what sugar and processed foods do to the body. Seriously, I could teach a course on it. I know it, but I cant live it. That's sad. So where do I go from here? I guess I will have to wait for my surgery that will hopefully fix some of the problem, and wake up each morning with intentions to be good. I have been honest with you again, lets hope on my next posting I am exclaiming a weight loss and a surgery date. here's hoping. I also would like to be able to walk into a room without feeling like every person in it is looking at me and judging me. but i think that's another topic for another time... way too many bottled up emotions to tackle that one right now. maybe next time though!

5 comments:

  1. Hi Amanda. I'm glad you posted your blog. Eating well is such a fine balance. It is not easy to maintain but it can be done. Something that works for me, when craving sugar (something I don't do anymore unless it's my time of the month), I eat a banana and/or some grapes. Those are very sweet fruits that can satisfy a sugar craving. That being said though, there is a fine line. Sometimes, if I eat those fruits, I will create a sugar craving that I didn't have before eating it. So I stick to eating it when I crave sugar and it works fine for me. Good luck on your daily battles.... You can do this!

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  2. Hey Amanda! Just wanted to say a huge Hi and tell you to hang in there. The journey to the sleeve does not have to be a perfect one. From my liquid trial to this fall I was horrified to gain 30+ lbs, which threw me over the weight limit for referral. Now I'm not recommending that anyone throw caution to the wind, BUT you should know that surgery does not get cancelled if your weight is over the referral limit. Just enjoy yourself, try to eat mindfully (which I failed miserably at), and take care of what you can while you are waiting for surgery. I am really looking forward to meeting you one of these days. Perhaps Karaoke will be in our future lol!

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  3. Amanda - just wanted to pop back in and let you know that once you are sleeved, your relationship with food is different. I am not hungry at all and I have to constantly remind myself to eat. The sleeve provides automatic portion control. Food to me now is mundane. There is light at the end of the tunnel! Hang in there chicky.

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  4. Karaoke sounds awesome!!! thanks for the comments ladies :)

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