Hello all my friends. I trust you are doing well. I would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for reading my blog, the traffic has tripled in the past few months because of all you amazing people reading! I'm doing awesome. I have reached the hundred pound since surgery mark,over one hundred and thirty all together, but what is more amazing is that I feel better than I did when I was 20, and believe me I'm significantly older than that!
.jpg)
My birthday is in a couple of days and I keep thinking about my birthday last year. Big ol pity party sitting in front of my bowl of cream of mushroom soup. Well for this birthday I could care less if I eat or not! Again i'm so grateful for this life changing surgery and my new lease on life. So that's my update about me, but that's not what this blog is about. I would like to throw out the topic of fat discrimination. It seems I have become way more sensitive to it than I was when I weighed almost four hundred pounds.I think when I was creeping up to that four hundred pound mark I had numbed myself to that feeling so much it would just roll off of me, now not so much.(it seems I have also become very analytical about my feelings... not sure if that is a good thing or not, maybe its the counselling) I get offended for myself and everyone else. I notice that its everywhere. I see it on tv, I hear my children being taunted, I see it on their games, its unbelievable. I will give you a few examples. My twelve year old came home from the playground the other day acting very quiet and blue, so I asked him what was wrong and he told me that a child kept calling him hippo. Really, are we still in the stage where children call each other hippo? I wanted to go and tear the playground up. But my over reacting is what probably led my very gentle twelve year old (who is not overweight) to go and hit this child a few days later. (that was a fun call from the principal) Then just yesterday my boys were playing xbox, the game was ghost busters, a game that James earned by babysitting for me. I was just puttering around when I heard one of the ghost busters say to peter about an obese ghost "peter you should take this one" to which peter replied "so now i'm a chubby chaser? Take out one plump girl on a date, like her personality and you never hear the end of it"! Really, really!!??!! What year are we living in. Why is it not ok to discriminate against people, but its ok to discriminate against weight? Why are we people noticing if someone dates a "
Plump" girl? Why are we defining a person on whether they are
plump or not?SO when I heard this I just stood in the middle of the living room staring at the television, while everyone else stared at me with a blank look on their faces. Bill said "what?" so I said, didn't you just hear what he said? It was obvious that no one else noticed so I got James to back track on the game and there it was clear as day for my little children to hear. It is unbelievable. Again I ask, why is it not ok to discriminate against anyone... that is unless they are fat.
Those are the things that make young girls starve themselves and throw up till the point of death, and those are the things that make young girls eat themselves to the point of death. I have been doing a lot of research on eating disorders through my counselling and on my own. while i was at work the other night I picked up a book written by a doctor about her two daughters who had anorexia. She got them to write their feelings about themselves in a diary and while reading it I could have been reading my own thoughts. It seems that eating disorders follow a similar thought pattern whether it be binge eating or anorexia. It all comes down to the duality of hating food and loving food, this leading to the hating of ones own self. I am facinated by it. An eating disorder is really a disordered mind, so we really don't need members of society making us feel like we should be ashamed to walk out our door. SO there is my rant for the day. feel free to chime in on it, id love to hear your opinion.By the way, if you feel you have an eating disorder and feel the need for some help the hope program is a great resource that i have been make aware of recently. There is help out there. http://www.edfnl.ca/
This is a link to the hope program
.jpg)
My birthday is in a couple of days and I keep thinking about my birthday last year. Big ol pity party sitting in front of my bowl of cream of mushroom soup. Well for this birthday I could care less if I eat or not! Again i'm so grateful for this life changing surgery and my new lease on life. So that's my update about me, but that's not what this blog is about. I would like to throw out the topic of fat discrimination. It seems I have become way more sensitive to it than I was when I weighed almost four hundred pounds.I think when I was creeping up to that four hundred pound mark I had numbed myself to that feeling so much it would just roll off of me, now not so much.(it seems I have also become very analytical about my feelings... not sure if that is a good thing or not, maybe its the counselling) I get offended for myself and everyone else. I notice that its everywhere. I see it on tv, I hear my children being taunted, I see it on their games, its unbelievable. I will give you a few examples. My twelve year old came home from the playground the other day acting very quiet and blue, so I asked him what was wrong and he told me that a child kept calling him hippo. Really, are we still in the stage where children call each other hippo? I wanted to go and tear the playground up. But my over reacting is what probably led my very gentle twelve year old (who is not overweight) to go and hit this child a few days later. (that was a fun call from the principal) Then just yesterday my boys were playing xbox, the game was ghost busters, a game that James earned by babysitting for me. I was just puttering around when I heard one of the ghost busters say to peter about an obese ghost "peter you should take this one" to which peter replied "so now i'm a chubby chaser? Take out one plump girl on a date, like her personality and you never hear the end of it"! Really, really!!??!! What year are we living in. Why is it not ok to discriminate against people, but its ok to discriminate against weight? Why are we people noticing if someone dates a "Plump" girl? Why are we defining a person on whether they are plump or not?SO when I heard this I just stood in the middle of the living room staring at the television, while everyone else stared at me with a blank look on their faces. Bill said "what?" so I said, didn't you just hear what he said? It was obvious that no one else noticed so I got James to back track on the game and there it was clear as day for my little children to hear. It is unbelievable. Again I ask, why is it not ok to discriminate against anyone... that is unless they are fat.
Those are the things that make young girls starve themselves and throw up till the point of death, and those are the things that make young girls eat themselves to the point of death. I have been doing a lot of research on eating disorders through my counselling and on my own. while i was at work the other night I picked up a book written by a doctor about her two daughters who had anorexia. She got them to write their feelings about themselves in a diary and while reading it I could have been reading my own thoughts. It seems that eating disorders follow a similar thought pattern whether it be binge eating or anorexia. It all comes down to the duality of hating food and loving food, this leading to the hating of ones own self. I am facinated by it. An eating disorder is really a disordered mind, so we really don't need members of society making us feel like we should be ashamed to walk out our door. SO there is my rant for the day. feel free to chime in on it, id love to hear your opinion.By the way, if you feel you have an eating disorder and feel the need for some help the hope program is a great resource that i have been make aware of recently. There is help out there. http://www.edfnl.ca/
This is a link to the hope program
